2025. I woke up today, on January 1, and felt compelled to write this all down, and post it somewhere. I’m not exactly sure why, but I can hear a voice telling me to do it as a future reminder of some kind.
A letter to myself? Possibly, but this really is for her.
A letter to myself? Possibly, but I think this is really for her.
Everything is changing, and changing fast. My life doesn’t resemble what it once did, not so very long ago, either. My relationships are evolving and rapidly changing form—but I’ve learned that there are some things you just can not change, and attempting to fight this will lead to frustration, sadness, and despair. I can only control so much, and I have made peace with that. I can control myself and my actions (most of the time) and that is all.
Everything is changing, and changing fast. My life doesn’t resemble what it once did, not so very long ago. My relationships are evolving and rapidly changing form—but I’ve learned that there are some things you just can not change, and attempting to fight this will lead to frustration, sadness, and despair. I can only control so much, and I have made peace with that. I can control myself and my actions, (most of the time) and that is all.
I know I have to be here for her. The most precious gift that has ever been given to me. I know I have not always been there for her when she has needed a father. It is painful to even think about. Lately, I have made the effort, and put in the time. This won’t last forever, and, like my relationships with other people, it is also rapidly evolving—soon her childhood will be just a series of photos and videos that I’ve taken.
I have to be present for her—the most precious gift that has ever been given to me. I know I have not always been there for her when she has needed a father, and that is painful to even think about. Lately, I have made the effort, and I have put in the time. I know this won’t last forever, and, like my relationships with other people, this is also rapidly evolving—and soon childhood will be just a series of photos and videos that I’ve taken. Vanished into memories.
Vanished into memories.
This is for her.
Don't fail.